From Lainey with Love

Hi everybody!
This is me this time.It's not easy for me to sit at a computer for as long as i'd like these days.But i just have to tell you all how happy i am to feel so loved and supported by all your good wishes and kind unselfish deeds.One of the things i pray for daily is to be able to have the opportunity to pay back some part of the riches i have received from you all.
Youv'e heard it said that even good things can come out of a bad situation. I never appreciated that until now. If you could only look inside my heart and head and see how much has changed for me.Big things have dwindled into nothing. And small things i've overlooked for many years have taken on such significance, that i'm not sure that anything but this cancer would have shown me the true value of life and all the things that can make it so happy and worthwhile.
I have gotten to know my friends so much better and new people have entered into my life.
What also touches me deeply is the many clients we work for now and in the past who are so compassionate and understanding. I wish i wasn't such a shy person. I want to be more like Keith.He can talk with people and get to know them so much easier. we have benefited from the type of business we are in from being able to interact with so many different personalities. One of the things i long for is to be able to hang paper in a room again.I miss the challenge and the satisfaction i got from giving it my all.
So, now i have new challenges. Every day the challenge is to get out of bed and find joy in doing simple things that make me feel like i've accomplished something.Maybe loading the dishwasher, or 1 load of laundry.
It was a really smart move to get another dog, because whenever i tend to want to stay in bed, Zoe, my puppy does her little whiny thing and that makes me immediately jump out of bed and get up for her sake.She's very attached to me, and i love that.
Because of the chemo (chemicals) my brain isn't too sharp, so i'm leaving the details of todays doctors visit to keith to share with you.What i can say is it hasn't sunken in that it is good news that my 'numbers" are coming down dramatically.
Before i sign off i want to say that my having a blog was the only way i thought of that we could share info with so many friends as expediently as possible.
I'm kind of self conscious that i even have a blog about me. But hopefully through it you can come to know me better.
I've wasted a lot of years in not spending enough time with the people in my life. You've been so good to Keith and i.You bring joy to us even in our saddest moments.
I've thought about all the things iv'e been through in life and have come to realize that there's more fighter in me than i realize.
Thank you for helping me fight.. I will do the same for you,
deepest love'
Lainey.